Sunday, February 22, 2009 . 6:59 PM

Now is Common Test week
Ahhh.. still can come here to BLOG!
OK..I'll make it short
Cos nid to study

My computer kena VIRUS!
WTH!
Go click that stupid advertisement
Tio Virus liao =="

Yesterday night got religious class
And it was the starting of first lesson for this year
It's been a month since I nver went to the class
At first, I was too overjoyed that there wont be any class in January
WHAHAHA!!!
However, so many weeks passed
and so many things also happened in sch
As weeks and weeks passed
I miss religious lessons even more

Cos I jus felt lost
I dont know why
I was very negative bout myself
And yest went to attend the class again
I tell you...
That was the most enjoyable lesson I've ever attended
It's not about funny or what
I actually can pay attention during class 100%!!
LOL!

I also realised that I can listen to the teacher
and at the same time, improve my chinese :D

Currently listening to EXILE songs :D
Woah.. their songs really rocks!!
LOL!
I like their singing, and their songs
I nver had that feeling whenever I sang any of my fav songs
But when I'm singing their song, too emotionally attached into their song
Got the "feel"
LOL!

But the singers are quite "old" la...
A bit disappointed.
The vocalists look like ah beng, but when I hear them sing
what a lovely gentle voice that was!!
LOL!

Trying to gather as many Exile songs as I can :D
Current Favourite Songs are :

Tada Aitakute
Ti Amo
Lovers Again
Together
I Believe
Kimi ga Iru kara

Enjoy! :D

[END]

So together, but so broken up inside...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009 . 5:14 PM

I dont think I'm keeping my post as detailed as before
Cos not really having much time to online

Today got back POA test paper
So regret
I shld have jus hand in blank paper up
How can I pass?!?!?
I dont even understand
and i dont even know what am i doing
why evrytime pass by 1 mark de?
I want to fail
so that I can have a re-test
Finally have an appointment with POA teacher this coming Thursday
Gonna catch up the all topics that she had covered T_T

Recently feeling down
Dunno why feeling life is so lonely
Maybe its lonely after all
It's just how u make it interesting
Sometimes dunno why
feeling life is so full of everything
Too much in the brain
that makes u become someone that u dont want to become
When u're young, so pure and innocent
the more old u grow
the brain gets even more infected

wanted to change
but it turned out to be so hard
Maybe have to change my thinking first
but so used to it
that my actions which i've imitated frm someone
jus naturally acts out
it's so hard to change...

-탁운상

So together, but so broken up inside...

Sunday, February 15, 2009 . 1:01 PM

Not straying back to my past anymore
Nor the future..
Just the present :D

Even if I'm tired along the journey
I'll still have to endure
Cos I know one day
This day will soon arrive
And I could smile and jump for joy instead of
crying and getting depress over it

Although along the journey
I might face many obstacles
But I'm willing to face them all
Cos I'm ready and prepared for those days

Even sometimes I would fall
I will stand up alone with my own two feets again
Cos I know I'm strong enough
I'm living my own way today
I'm breathing the way I want to breathe

And the day will begin today
I'm gonna keep moving forward
As fast as I could
No matter what I might face along this journey
I know I must endure till this day
The day which I get to smile again
like the way I always use to be...

So together, but so broken up inside...

Saturday, February 14, 2009 . 7:04 PM

Today was really like a Miracle!
LOL!
Today morn, just realised how to really make use of my GOAL in life
LOL! "just realised how to really make use of my GOAL in life", feels funny right?

Previously, I was troubled bout myself
Not knowing what kind of person I really am
Acting like somebody
Trying to be like somebody
It's not the really ME that I'm acting
Feeling negative most of the time during school
Depressed over POA results which is my BEST subject of all could actually dropped till nearly failed!
Depressed over myself, that why am I so negative...???
Realised myself when i was thinking ideas for my ART...
Realised why I didnt have my own opinions
Realised that evrything in my mind was what ppl was saying bout, and it wasnt my own opinion at all...

But this morn, read a book that I borrowed frm the library
Returned to my normal self again :D
This time I wanna be just myself :)
Act the way I want to be, feel the way I want to feel :)

And yea..
Using my comp right now
and evrytime it would be lagging like hell
Bcos of not enough disk space in C Drive
Just now disk cleanup, dunno what I deleted
Then suddenly my C Drive have 5 GB of free space!
Whoa! 1st time wor!
I couldnt believe it cos evrytime I did disk cleanup was jus freeing one or two hundreds MB in C Drive
Always lacking of space in my C Drive!
Suddenly become 5 GB, I was kind of unbelievable!
At first I was like, "did I see wrongly?"
"I didnt!!! Really 5 GB wor! Am I dreaming?? Refresh again... Eh!?!? Really 5 GB, I'm not dreaming!!!"
LOL!

I think I stop here liao
Btw...
I think maybe I'll online for once a month or maybe not goin to online for a few months??
Not sure bout myself either
Hehe..
Cos I wanna study...
Computer consumes my time TOO MUCH :D

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Friday, 13 February 2009

Yea...
Tmr is Valentine's day
This morning went to sch to gave all the sweets and candies to my frens which I've prepared yesterday nite
One shocking thing was...

When sch was over
I was told by Marcus that he had lost his lollipop that I gave him for Valentine's Day
I was very angry after he told me
but I didnt shout at him on the face
I just shout out " I dont care, it's not my problem. You lost it, it's ur prob!"
u might think its just a small matter
just lost a lollipop only what...
Nth to be angry at...
But this is not the first time

SECONDARY 1
I used my own savings to buy a Kit Kat Chunky Chocolate for him during Valentine's Day
I remembered that day he said he had sore throat, cannot eat
And eventually, he wanted to return me o.O!!!
The gift was I bought for him de and he wanted to return!?
So I asked him to just keep it first...
doesnt mean he have to eat it immediately
And then he left it under the sch table
the nxt day, DISAPPEAR
I was mad at first, but later on felt "ok lor, lost la..nvm de :)"
So I nver bothered

SECONDARY 3
I think gave him chocolate/lollipop
either one...
So happily gave him :D
And I think he lost again
Nvm lor...although was angry for a while
but nver think more bout it :D

SECONDARY 4
TODAY...
gave him a lollipop
and he was the first to get my lollipop
In the end, he told me he LOST it
WTH!!!
I was really damn mad at him!
LOST THEN LOST lor!
I dont wanna care anymore
Evrytime give him anything
Always lost de
Since he dont know how to appreciate the gifts I gave it to him
Nxt year Valentine's Day decided not to give him anymore things!

Was very angry at first when I walked out of the classroom with Sheryl
And we were heading to the Art room that time
After that, when I reached the Art room
I realised...
I wasnt really mad...
I was feeling rather sad
Sad bcos as a good friend, like him...
doesnt seems to appreciate the things that I gave it to him evrytime
Fine lor! Nxt time not going to give him anything anymore

Evrytime I give things to my friends or classmates to my friends
Especially during Valentine's Day
HE 's the only one who loses my gifts that I gave him
Nvm...
I'm not giving to him only..
Nxt year...

And yea...
I get to use my new CO instrument
WHAHAHA!
The old one that I'm using the last time is going to pass it down to my sec 1 new Juniors
LOL!
New instruments are better, louder and clearer :D
Had a test today
To see whether we could qualify for SYF
And our teacher said that our section, maybe 1 person have to be sacrificed
Cos there is 9 ppl, and we just needed 8 in SYF

Practice...
Practice...

And...
OMG! my TURN!!
Went to the seat with my score!
I played all the songs for him
And he point out my mistakes
I was like OMG!

Then he gave his comments bout me...

Mr Chin: u just joined CO last year right? and last year since when did u join CO?
Me: Err...around October..
Mr Chin: u are now secondary?
Me: secondary 4
Mr Chin: u're secondary 4 ha..
Me: .....!!! Why u ask?
Mr Chin: Erm.. No. Because just now after listening to ur play, I was quite touched
to hear that u can play so well compared to the time when I first taught u.
Me: o.O
Mr Chin: After ur turn, there will still be 4 more ppl
Me: *nod nod*
Mr Chin: So, let's say IF, the other 4 plays better than u, I cannot gurantee that u can go into SYF, unless u dont want to be in SYF, then I can gurantee that u'r not in :D
Mr Chin:u want to go in SYF?
Me: *nod nod* yea ...
Mr Chin: OK.. u may go :)
Me:

LOL!
Very funny...
I think I have the confidence that I can go into SYF
LOL!

Stop here then :D

So together, but so broken up inside...

Tuesday, February 3, 2009 . 5:38 PM

Went to KBOX just now
Haha...
Was so surprised with the cake
They actually bought me a small cake for my birthday!
LOL!


My face looks so stupid >.<

So together, but so broken up inside...

Monday, February 2, 2009 . 10:38 PM

Back to bloggin
Today was feeling rather negative
So this post will be filling up all my negative thoughts
JUST my negative thoughts ok...
I'm fine
Still my old-self
And I dont want anybody to be worried bout me
Just writing what i'm thinking
Which is of cos going to be NEGATIVE...

Today went to sch as usual
Nth special actually
Well...
I was hoping for some surprises for my birthday
But everything turned out normal
Nth special to me
I thought Sheryl and Pearl would buy the Japanese Book from Popular as my present
Which I've been craving for all these time
Cos they knew what i wanted to buy
But it seems that my predictions are all wrong
In the end, they just bought me a small keychain o_O!!
I more I expect things to be the way they should be
The more opposite they are going to be !

Ok la...
they bought for me i still have to appreciate it :D
But dunno why my heart feel so sour
Maybe becos of wrong expectations...?
They nver bought the books as my present, it's ok
I can earn money and buy it for myself :)
And my good friend, Marcus
I was expecting a present from him
Since he knew when was my birthday
He was the one who kept on reminding me that my birthday is coming
And was the one who kept pestering me bout what i want for my birthday present
In the end, was the one who ended up empty-handed
Whom I had to ask from him for my present, then he will go buy one for me
After all these 2 years I've been buying presents for him
yet he nver even given me any before!
It's ok not to receive any birthday presents
I dont mind...

But he knew me for 4 years, and he was the person which kept on forgetting when was my birthday
Told him many times, still forgot
Yet, he was the first person that I ever befriended in class when I was in secondary 1
But ok la, this year he seemed to finally rmb my birthday
And this year seems to be the first time that I ever received his birthday wishes through sms
Nvm then, I'll treat it as I owed him during my previous life =="
Haiz...
Now i finally understand why Pearlyn dun wan him liao
If I were Pearlyn, I think I oso dont want !!

Just chatted with him on MSN
I just dun care him
He asked me why like i suddenly dont care bout evrything
Cos I'm currently in a moody state
And how do u expect me to say to him?
I dont know how to react to him
And we always treat each other like brothers and sisters...

Sometimes I just wonder...
Is my birthday just so hard to rmb?
If not, why isit that so many ppl tend to forget it?
Or maybe it's just too easy to rmb
becos it falls on 31st Jan
Last day of the month, January...
That it actually slipped off ppl's mind so easily?
Or maybe they dont feel it important to them at all?

Tmr going to KBOX with my friends
Going to bring camera there
I dont think it will be a great day tmr
Not hoping anything best to happen tmr
Haiz.. forget it
Jus feeling tired and sick of him right now...

So together, but so broken up inside...