Wednesday, March 18, 2009 . 7:33 PM
Damn angry now!This kind of bro oso have!
My bro and I actually promised to go to Lot one to buy his chinese assessment book
And he told my sis that he will meet me at mac entrance
Waited for him almost 25 mins
Still didnt see him
went into mac one round
saw him there alone eating french fries
and he was going to finish the fries soon
I went up to him
scolded him
I was very angry...
Give him a very angry face
He dun care...pretend like nth happen
I dont care
just say i dont want to help him buy chinese assessment book
I told him I'll go home first...
Then tell me what SH!T
Say want to go buy bread first
Cos dad call him to buy for him!
Go buy for all i care
This kind of bro oso have
I told him I waited for him for very long le
He like dont care
continue eating his fries
Then I oso told him that I was very angry
He said he oso got wait for me outside
Then waited 5 mins didnt saw me, then he went in to eat
WHAT CRAP LA!
I waited for 25 mins he wait for me 5 mins!
WHAT THE HELL!!?
Still say "NOT my problem lor... I got wait for you 5 mins, but didnt see you!"
WHAT THE IDIOT SH!T !! BLOODY HELL!!
WIN LIAO LOR!!
EVRYTHING BLAME ME!
STILL SAY WANT MEET ME
say MEETING me liao in the end pangseh me
WIN LIAO LA!
TAKE IT AS I PREVIOUS LIFE OWE HIM DE LOR!!!
BLOODY SH!T
Sometimes I had this thoughts
Cos a lot of ppl say my bro's character is very similar to Zhe Zhang's character
I just wonder
Will Zhe Zhang be like my bro?
Angry was am I now
But more to sad than angry
BLOODY IDIOT!
I cant ever understand why I had this kind of bro!?
Evryday only know how to play computer, watch TV then sleep
PLay computer, watch TV then sleep
IDIOT PIG!!
What else does he know??
I still make out some of my time to buy his assessment books
Yet he like that
And he doesnt have the interest in studying
Only know how to play
I hated him a lot when he doesn't want to study and stay at home like a freeloader
Eating well and sleeping well like a PIG
without even producing any sweat on earning money back
And kept on playing comp
as if like our family is PRINT MONEY OUT for him like that
DAMN ASS!! So together, but so broken up inside...
Friday, March 13, 2009 . 9:49 PM
Today Sport's Carnival was damn boringPlay first round of netball, then out le
evry year the same
I'm not expecting anything else
Sheryl's mood wasn't good today
Maybe I shldn't stay too close to her
Maybe she did come to my blog to read my post
or maybe she did not
Whether or not did she, doesn't really matter...
I dont care anyway
But one thing which I dont understand was
She kept on saying that she feel she've changed
Then did she ever try ways of changing them?
Funny person lor!
I dont like the feeling of being around her
It makes me feel so negative about it
and I dont like the way she speaks
Although some of her words is logical
But sometimes, her words are not all correct
Being with her really makes out all the negative thoughts in my mind
Sometimes I just wonder why
Why she nid to be so sensitive over small things
why she's being so negative bout small little things??
Which is not necessary to have...
Recently often talk to Heng Huat in class..
Trying to know more bout him
Dont anyhow think wor, just trying to know more bout Geminis
Especially male gemini :D
LOL!
I want to know how is their character like
Cos kind of interested :)
Trying to jia you in this March Holiday
Cos many studying nid to do...
Fail my combined humanities
So trying to buck up on my Lit :D
This Sunday having chinese calligraphy lessons right after religious class!
Yea! Cant wait!
Since for so many years
that i've never touched the 毛笔 le :)
Recently quite in love with Jae Hee
LOL!
Nth to write le...
I'll end here :) So together, but so broken up inside...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 . 8:46 PM
Today was a good day :DWas rather happy when I was on my journey home
My whole mind lit up again :)
Maybe bcos of all the positive thinking in my mind
March Holidays coming next week
Teacher call me to paint the pic of the group of women which I had previously sketched
Maybe becos of teacher compliment of my gd sketch
Which made me felt happy
Actually, there is nth to be happy of
Haiz...
Failed my Combined Humanities
So hard...
I'm so worried bout O levels...
Getting nearer and nearer each day
Well...
Had to keep this post short
today feeling happy, cos I get to know how to control my own life
The way I want.
To me, 真正的爱情是不存在的...
It's not that I'm wrong.
It's rather that I choose not to believe in it's existence.
Nobody can change anyone's thinking
It's who I am to decide my own thinking
Life made me realised many things
Only by struggling, in order to understand things better
Only by making mistakes, in order to change and improve them
人生わ切り無しかえです...
[life is always changing...] So together, but so broken up inside...
Sunday, March 8, 2009 . 10:08 AM
Yea..This is what I've drawn last week
Cos Mr Lim tell us to do sketches
of pictures that we felt it's interesting
So, saw this picture in National Geographic magazine
Then thought that it was interesting
So I drew out :)
It's still ok ba?
If u can't really see what it is
It's actually the legs of a group of woman, wearing high-heels
walking along the street :)
Recently, trying to change myself
I never stick to sheryl anymore
Like kinda avoiding her
Cos her attitude really made me feel irritated
or rather sad...
Recently watched a Korean Drama "Delightful girl Choon Hyang"
It was really very funny
I like the male lead..
Especially his acting skills
Really good :D
Jae Hee! That's him :)
Him wearing specs :D
His shows that I've watched is "Delightful girl Choon Hyang" and "Witch Yoo Hee"
Both dramas are nice and funny :)
Highly recommended for all to watch :)
Haha..
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Wednesday, 25 February 2009, 9:58PM
Today was really really really really really very tired!
I've been yawning for the whole day
Just got back my POA resluts
Can't believe I could pass!
信じられない!
Although jus got a passing mark
I wasnt happy either
I feel that there is smth wrong with me
I shouldnt get such mark, I should get even better than this
Anyway...
Today's Art lesson, felt like sleeping
Few hours sitting there listening to teacher talking
Like attending some kind of lecture class
Teacher also made us realise how to makeour idea conceptual :D
I like Jun Tao's painting the most, although I dont even know him
But I like it a lot, cos got the "feel" inside...
LOL!
This is the orignal colour of the painting :D
Very nice :)
Got another shot, using another mode
Then the colour turns
LOL!
Like got the "ang moh" painting style 的 feeling
It's really good!
While going home, saw a BIG rainbow
Nice?? :D
A bit feeling sad
cos cant get to take the whole full picture of the rainbow :(
Not jus one, but 2!
If u look at it more closely
the second one on the top looks more faint
Actually is it 3. There are 3 rainbows altogether
one more is being overlapped by the rainbow in the pic :)
It's cool to see 3 rainbows at a time!
LOL!
I reached home, rainbow is still there
So quickly ran home and grabbed my camera to take photos of it :D
Not only I notice the rainbow
On my way home, I saw many ppl taking out their handphone cameras to shoot the rainbow
Is today a special day?
Or why is it that a rainbow appears once in a blue moon in the sky?
Maybe some miracles just happened?
It's rare to see a big rainbow in the sky :D
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Tuesday, 24 February 2009, 8:49PM
Although she is no longer the Silk Hua that I've met
But I still have to accept who she really is now
After she's gone, felt like someone from my side have just disappeared silently
Feeling a bit lonely
Can't get used to be independent again
Cos previously always stick to Sheryl
I'm being too dependent on her
She made me realise many things
However, recently, I dont think I can be dependent on her anymore
And I must be independent again
I dont think I can play around anymore
Gotta get serious in school
I nid to catch up with what teacher is teaching!
虽然现在已经开始觉得疲倦, 但是, 我只是在这路上的开始。
我必须要撑到毕业那天为止!
私のもくひょう:
我想笑着离开这间学校, 我一定要笑着离开这间学校
[我不能再停下来了, 因为我应经很慢了。那一幕在哭泣的我, 和我越来越近, 好像就快要成真了!]
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Monday,23 February 2009, 4:18PM
Just had my POA test paper today
Felt like passing up blank paper again
I don't understand what the questions are saying
I know I'm gonna fail for this test!
English test just got back, still the same results
Although is feeling disappointed, but at least I can know where to improve on :)
Decided to learn Emaths on my own
Cos teacher's pace is too slow
Dunno how long will it take for her to teach finish
I must be independent, on my own
After I had my POA test, feeling worse
I felt lke crying, but I hold my tears
Trying to think postitively, trying hard to convince yself
But I cant
I really felt like crying for help
Trying to call someone to teach me the chapter
Which I dont get it
But too bad, my sis didnt take POA before
Recently, felt that my very close friend in school, Sheryl
I feel she have changed
Maybe I'm too sensitive or maybe I'm too negative
Or maybe, I'm the one that has changed
I feel so negative when I'm with her
Maybe I should just stick with the others
I can feel myself struggling
Struggling for many things
Maybe my pace is too fast
That I have to slow down things abit So together, but so broken up inside...
