Tuesday, April 21, 2009 . 10:07 PM
Hurray!I've always been waiting patiently for that day to pass
CO SYF Competition
Finally over
I can have more time le!
Skip CCAs le
DUN CARE!
LOL
Recently very mad bout myself
I dont feel like studying
Dunno why
No mood to study.
I have to control my emotions
control...control!!
Exams coming le
So distracted
Anyway, SYF we got a silver award is alrdy MIRACLE le!
LOL
I tot we would have gotten a bronze cos of the embarassing mistakes that happen during play
Nvm...
I dun care much bout CO anyway
I feel so wierd being wif my CO members
This coming thurs having our section lunch together after sch
I'm not so familiar wif them
And I hate bondings
I just dun get it why must i have the need to bond wif them
Yea. I'm anti-social
So what?
I dun like to get familiar wif them
Cos it ends up with no gd endings
Either they are bored with me
Or I'm bored wif them
I dont feel as part of their grp
So why shld i even attend the lunch gathering?
Asking me to think of topics to chat wif them
I cant think of any, I dont find common interest between myself and them
I make friends through a third party whom I'm very familiar wif
I dont just make friends on my own
Wierd person I am, rite??
That's wad my sis says bout me
I would make one friend, my own
If I'm very interested in that person
I dont go round and just make any friends that I considered as my "friends"
Telling me to bond with someone which I'm not very familiar wif
I really hate that kind of feeling
And u have to always think how the person is feeling and what is he/she thinking
Or maybe, u can say I'm not good at this kind of thing
I'm not good at socialising
I really dun like to do this kind thing
It's so tiring. So together, but so broken up inside...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 . 12:02 AM
As time really heals up woundsI finally had the courage to appear online in MSN
He talked to me as usual as he does.
Although being very cold towards him at first
but i know its not gd being like dat towards him
I began to forgive him
Although my heart still feels the fear inside
I'm not sure why I feel fearful
And I do not want to know why
I jus know that, just be friends again
Like Peter said, take it as an experience
Maybe I can accept that
And I'm trying to forgive him
Slowly...
Although I dont hold any grudge in him anymore
But the fears are still in me
Just chatted with him a few mins ago
Tryin to stay in a friendly tone
He's still the same old he
Never change
Thoughts and words are still the same
Maybe I've change too much?
I just find him very very BORING
Like a child, still not grown up
I dont take the initiative to chat with him
He was always the first to start a conversation wif me
So i chatted with him
trying to change my mindset to a positive one
But he was always the one
who made my mind turn negative
I couldnt help it
Talking bout lame and boring stuffs
Like nth beter to do
Or maybe I simply just cant accept him as my fren again? So together, but so broken up inside...
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 . 9:49 PM
Finally update...Nver update for WEEEKS!
Many things happened
Yea...
Sure got lots of things to say :D
Firstly, now still trying to paint finish my picture
But I cant seem to do it
dunno why
My toning is damn bad
Teacher is helping me by going back to the basics first
Hurt my finger few previous days
while playing basketball during PE lessons =="
I've guessed that it's been so long since I played basketball again
Badminton was even longer =="
Finger still hurts
In a blue-black state now
hurt the nerves in my finger
I just wonder if my bone is being affected?
These few days often experienced chest pains
I just wonder if it was my heart having problems or my lungs having problems
If I breathe in too deep
My heart/lungs touches the ribcage
and pain can be felt.
Or maybe its just my nerves that is the one having problems??
My friend told me to go for a check-up
I know I should go
But I just dont feel it necessary for me
Dont know why I feel it this way
These few weeks learn many things
and thought many things
And gd news is that I'll be heading towards the career of psychology :D
I find interest in this course
And I want to know more
Like it because it's interesting
and I want to learn how to read people's mind
I want to understand ppl
I want to understand why they will react that way
Feel like knowing evrything
LOL
My friends say that I'm 变态
Want to know what other ppl is thinking
But no choice, I've already decided to choose this path
Cos humans are just so interesting for me to learn
LOL!
Maybe tmr or friday going Daiso to buy something
That time accompay my frens to IMM for Fahrenheit's autograph
Only ppl with their albums are allowed to went in to see them =="
Only One of my fren went in
so the rest of us hang around IMM
It's been years ever since I've visited IMM again
LOL
Then visited Daiso
IMM's Daiso is very BIG!
the 1st Daiso I've evr been to was Vivo's
And sad to say
I only visit Daiso store just once in my life
LOL
Then 2nd time was in IMM
The explore the products... and I went in kept saying "WOW!!!!"
Sometimes ppl heard me saying that, they look at me
i was like so paiseh ><
Like so sua gu!!
Nver been to Daiso b4
LOL!
I didnt know Singapore would open a shop that sells evrything that imports from Japan
Till I went to IMM's Daiso
I'm so sua gu
LOL!
Honestly, the first time I visited Daiso was just a breif browse through around the shop
That 2nd time was a real shop in Daiso
LOL
Cant wait to go there again :D So together, but so broken up inside...
