Sunday, June 28, 2009 . 7:06 PM

These few days kind of addicted to this Korean Drama.
"Beethoven Virus"
Cannot watch it without my sis
Cos she oso wants to watch it
I like the story plot
It's nth to do with the characters



Cannot kena addict
I must have control!!

School is opening tomorrow
And I'm going to be dead tomorrow!!
I havent do finish my homework
It's like evrything starts to zero again

Working on my life plot later
To get a clearer view of my current life :D

I'll do wadever homework I can today
Back to study mode
Must jiayou again!
Got motivated to study again
Hahas :D
Sometimes I can feel god really loves me
not just loves me
But TOO Concerned bout me
Evrytime I nearly go off my line, he'll try ways to pull me back
I believe in GOD
& I really do :)
And I'll always rmb
The life he gave me is not mine
but HIS
He can do wadever he wants
And I'll ALWAYS let him be :D

Tomorrow onwards not onlining more
Cos turning back to study mode again
So not updating
I'm trying to focus on my goal anyway
AND I KNOW WHERE I WANT TO GO
So I'm learning how to manage my time more efficiently
Aja Aja Fighting!
Ganbatte imasu! :D

So together, but so broken up inside...

Friday, June 26, 2009 . 2:24 PM

Finally finished Art!
Now is homework!
Piles of homework waiting for me to do
SIAN!

Today morn asked my mum if I could learn piano
She agreed!!
This is the second or thr third time I'm asking her
Cos previously she does not permit me to learn
she said that I can learn, but if I learn, I cannot learn half-way and give up
I was happy of cos! :D
I wanted to learn piano since young
Recently, I also fall in love with violin
Haha.

I'm intending to learn after my o lvls.
Whether to learn piano or violin, I'm not so sure yet
But most probably is piano.
Cos is cheaper, and easier to learn
Plus, one violin cost in thousands!
Really damn exp!

GTG now!
Will try to update more :D

So together, but so broken up inside...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009 . 11:43 PM

Yea.
I know.
Each time our conversation doesnt last long.
I've also given up on this.
I dont intend to maintain the way I want
Just let it be.
Cos I know it's impossible between us.
I should forget that happy moment between us.
and let go of it.
cos it's no use holding onto it anymore.
Nothing changes.
Nothing...

Yep!!
2 more days till painting submission
Gonna die of it!
Still got so many adjustments to make
I'm still doubting if I'm able to make it through
Hope so!
HOMEWORK!
Another one
Still not touched yet
Haiz. How I hated homework
SO many things to do.
Gonna discipline myself now.
Not onlining till exams over.
Now stuck in the addiction of onlining
Worse thing!

And totally forgotten!
I actually need to uplad my photos
Haiz, lazy now
Next post ba, HAHA
Uploading SOON, okays?
Just be more patient

gtg slp soon
need to regain energy
Nitez.

So together, but so broken up inside...

Friday, June 19, 2009 . 12:29 PM

Bought my new ipod few weeks ago!!!
And I took pics of it too.
Now lazy to upload.
I'll upload it in my next post soon
Along with the my painting!!
LOL!

Left 6 more days to paint till submission.
No more time le.
Must faster jiayou!
LOLS!

Last nite I was sitting beside my sis
Looking at her surfing the net
visiting many ppl's blog.
Saw Peter's and Leon's blog
Pictures uploaded!!
Leon's was funny.
I like his bird photo.
We're laughing like mad when we read that.

Looking to more photos
and...
OMG!
Both of them slim down le!
Wow!
They change so much wor!
My sis was funny, she said she oso wanted to go SA
So that she can oso slim down like them
I asked her:

ME: How they so slim down so fast de?

SIS: I dunno. Maybe SA there got no food to eat ba.

ME: HAR? Really meh?

SIS: LOLS! NO la. I anyhow say de. Haha...

ME: Haha...

Looking at them
Really remind of me smth
Smth I've long forgotten
which I nid to study hard now.
Everyday, I was painting.
As if I've become a full-time artist
Whole day going back to sch to paint.
Come home alrdy tired.
Dont felt like doing homework.
Cannot ar!

My dream of going to psychology course is leaving me further and further away
Watching the korean drama "Boys Before Flowers"
oso reminded me of my dream
It motivated me even more
And it makes me even clearer of what I want in life.
I must start now.
Cant delay anymore
I tell myself
I have to become more capable
more matured and not being a small little girl anymore
Which evryone always thought that i'm like one
I have to change to become another person.

So together, but so broken up inside...

Sunday, June 14, 2009 . 10:30 PM

Just came back frm 3-day 少年班 at Malaysia.
Went there to 服务.
First time learnt so many things.
It was fun, cos get to try new things which I've not yet done before.
And the most important thing is, I was happy and willing to 服务.
Thanx to Barry, Shigeng, Wei Feng and Jun Han and also other Malaysia members.
I would not have done it without their help.

Yea. After watching Boys Before Flowers.




Now the complete of Zettai Kareshi Specials!


Sad to say.
Bad ending.
I dont like the ending.
It's so pointless to create this special.
In the end, the ending is still the same, it's like repeating the storyline.
The boyfriend robot has to die in the end.
Kind of disappointed.

Btw, I rmbed telling Keyo that I think there will be a special episode for this j drama.
Before the specials were even up long ago.
He didnt think so, and he insists that it is impossible to have a special for this drama.
In the end, HAHA
I was right. Told him alrdy.
He dont want to believe.
Then too bad lor.
Now iti is happening right in front of his eyes
I'll see how he reacts!

Just receive news frm my family
四伯just passed away yest.
I was wrong.
I didnt know that his stroke was that serious
I thought he was partially paralyzed like my grandma
also my father's mother, whom passed away long ago.
I didnt know that his was even serious than my grandma's
till i heard it frm my mum.

Anyway,although feeling shocked at first.
But still have to accept the fact
visiting funeral tmr.
Cant have positive attitude towards my cousins
Can I?

So together, but so broken up inside...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009 . 11:18 PM

6月8日

Friends dont really appreciate your loyalty towards them. Do they?
我还甚至怀疑她们到底有没有把我当成“自己的朋友”那样看待
为什么我老是一直要求公平人生呢？
或许是事后放下自己，而开始为别人着相
我的生活里，老是一直在寻找“公平”这两个字。有必要吗？
我好像开始又变得越来越贪心了。怎么办？

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四伯突然中了风，让全家人都感到担心
而我呢，却一点感觉都没有。
听了消息，都不知道该如何反映
现在爸，妈和姐，都一直到处去庙里拜神
姐还半夜特地的向“老母娘”磕头。够感人的。
他们3人，心也太好了。

而我，什么都没做
连去医院探望她都没有，更何况是去拜神，保佑他。

现在一点感觉都没有
可以想象四伯的家人在哭，感到伤心，难过。
想象他的家人哭起来的样子，却自己毫无感觉。

虽然只是中风罢了，又不见得严重到很惨的那个地步
为什么人，老是这么悲观呢？
不知道为什么会这么想：

现在为他中风的事而哭得那么惨，未免也太迟了吧？
平时不照顾自己的身体，现在发出病来，才开始后悔，也太迟了吧？

我爸爸那边的家庭，对我来说，和陌生人没什么两样。
我跟自己的堂哥，堂姐一点都不熟
一年见一次，会熟吗？

现在爸爸那边的家人出了事，好像一点影响都没有
感觉好像和我无关似的

“你跟我说他的事有什么用啊？有和我无关。”的这种想法
你一定会觉得我很冷淡无情吧？
Anyway, gtg slp le
Late alrdy. Nitez


5月30日

再过一天，就是华文 'O' 水准考试了。
什么都没准备，现在才开始行动
未免太迟了吧？

还害怕华文有要重考
希望一切能够顺利地过关

现在我知道为什么了。
为什么男人失事后，总是把身边最亲近的女孩子
当成他的代替品
就因为要弥补或填上自己的心灵创伤
为什么这种事老是发生在我身上？
一次已经够了，何况是第二次
或许我和男性朋友靠得太近吧

Haiz, 习惯就好
最多也不去向他们的意思是什么
也不去向他们到底要干什么

Whoa，好累哦！
不知不觉，写着写着，就睡着了
现在是早上12点，好早吧？
现在要去做我的美梦了！

So together, but so broken up inside...