Saturday, October 31, 2009 . 10:23 PM

What is happening to me??
Don't know why today tears kept rolling out from my eyes
I was reading 'To Kill A Mockingbird' novel and
I read about an incident whereby Scout was being scolded by Uncle James for hitting Francis Hancock
Whom Scout was being 'wrongly accused' of the one at fault
Suddenly, my heart was bitterly sour
Then I realized I was crying
I don't even know what was wrong with me
Maybe it was just some past incidents that happened to me a few years ago

Just now
When I heard my mum using some unpleasant words to scold my bro
I told my sis in our room that mum didn't know how to educate children
But my sis explained to me and made me stand on the perspective of my mum
Then my tears came rolling down again
I was thinking maybe becos of the past memories that were being left behind in me
which made me felt like crying
I'm not sure what really happened to me
But it just happened without me noticing it
until I realized it myself

I was wondering if I was really upset bout smth
but I don't really think so
I'm not really upset bout anything
I couldn't really explained the problem to myself
Just a weird feeling
That comes and go so easily

So together, but so broken up inside...

Wednesday, October 28, 2009 . 6:53 PM

OMG!
I think I've fall in love with Kim Hyun Joong
He's too admirable!
After knowing his past life story during his high school
and his present achievements
It's too ... admirable
I think he's the first idol that catches my attention
Who made me idolize him
Haha

Although he had gone through plastic surgery
But it doesnt really matter to me
As long as I still like his personality :)



He inspires me a lot
Like a role model to me
Haha
I love especially his seriousness
Looking at him reminds me of studying hard
LOL!




I'm touched by this video
the new employees of Anycall (including Hyun Joong) made their thank you concert to their seniors to show their appreciation towards them
I like the Hyun Joong's performance
That was the best part :D
His dancing skills are great!
and his performance made my whole body dance along with him too
LOL!
Too shuai!
Even the guys would start to envy bout his body muscles
LOL!

Of course... it's not his body muscles or appearance that made me mesmerize bout him
but his special personality
He has his own great sense of humour
Haha
Will often think bout him :D

So together, but so broken up inside...

Tuesday, October 27, 2009 . 10:04 PM

Well...
It seems that life for an Aquarian would actually be that depressing :(
Just read about the profile of Aquarius this afternoon
The descriptions are so accurate
I could even felt that the descriptions are as if describing my own self
I didn't know my life would be that... sad
I thought Cancer was the most pathetic horoscope of all
Never did I realized that it turned out to be my own =X

Of course I did some research bout other horoscopes
Viewed only some of them
Still, my own horoscope has the most negative descriptions
But still, I love being an Aquarian
Nothing changes :D

Just thinking...
Maybe I'm fated to have this kind of life
After all, my life isn't that much 'worthy' compared to my other frens
'worthy' as in not having a much better life
Have to live on with all the pain within me
Yea...
I'm expecting much of that in the future
I'll hang on as much as I can with that...
until I'm too tired... too exhausted to fight anymore...
until I'm finally shattered into pieces...

So together, but so broken up inside...

Monday, October 26, 2009 . 10:19 PM

So sick of life in Singapore
Just wished that I'm not living in Singapore right now
If there is a country that I want to live in right now
I think it would be a place located in somewhere in United States
Places like Port Angeles, Seattle?
Maybe I'll get to meet some vampires there XD (read too much twilight and new moon... LOL)
or maybe I would want to live in Australia or maybe Canada?
Singapore is just too stress
the education system has already failed
What more can I expect from this?

The people here are too kiasu
I would agree to that
People are too suspicious of each other
Sometimes I even wonder if I am that fortunate to be born in SG

Yea.
I just realized I made a big mess out of my life
I was the culprit. I broke the both of them
I was the one who was jealous of her
Isn't this the ending that I wanted to see?
Isn't this what I wanted after all?
Yet I'm so... irresponsible

I always thought that he was the bad guy
Never did I expect that I would turned out to become one of him
I eventually ended up being a bad guy too
I've hurt him
And he hurt me too
Now we're a tie
I don't owe him anything anymore and he don't owe me either
I think starting all over as friends wouldn't hurt that much
Would it?
Hope not... and I'm sorry
I hope I could just tell him this so easily

This is what I did to him
And therefore, no matter how miserable it is
I still have to pay for the price

So together, but so broken up inside...

Friday, October 16, 2009 . 6:03 PM

Yea.
Finished reading twilight novel



Great story
I couldn't believe I could read that fast
Highly recommended for teenagers
Haha
It's been long ever since I touched books again

Anticipating for New Moon novel from my friend



Heard that this novel was boring from one of my friends
It focus much more on Jacob Black



Hehe.
And NOW! New Moon movie would be releasing soon!
On 3 DEC in singapore
Why is singapore the slowest to release foreign movies?
Other countries are releasing on 20 November
Well, I'm looking forward to it
although not much people like this story

Okay. I'll end here
Nothing much to say :)

So together, but so broken up inside...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009 . 8:11 PM

Exams just ended today
FINALLY! IT'S OVER!!
I've been waiting for this day

So that now I could fully concentrate on my O levels
Today really learnt something from school
Having my own unique opinions is very very IMPORTANT
It just makes me feel like myself
It makes me feel different from others

Tmr my Benkyou Daisakusen going to start as I've planned
Hope things would go smoothly
I dont wanna procrastinate any further
Must always stay and focus where I am :D

So together, but so broken up inside...

Sunday, October 11, 2009 . 12:21 PM

Last night had some conflicts over some stuffs
Yea..
And now I've learnt my lessons
Never ever made any promises to anyone anymore!
I just hate being self-centered!
And I hate especially Singapore's society

I cant find my own personal Diary
Had no idea where I've placed it
Wanted to write down what I was feeling
But I just couldn't find it anywhere
Planning to use a new one
New Diary = New Start

"In order for things to change, I must change first"
I agree to this sentence
I'm trying hard to change
trying to "Give more than is expected"

After last night's incident
I can feel that I'm more determine
Determine to transform to another person
A new beginning will soon be reborn
And that's where you'll see me standing

"Stop Wishing, start resolving"

So together, but so broken up inside...

Friday, October 9, 2009 . 6:48 PM

Yea..
Chose to stop blogging for a while because of major exams coming soon
Well...
Recently, nothing really happened in school
Just kind of surprised that my friendship with Aaron had turned out a bit better
I think I've forgiven him

And thanks to Edward
He changed my impression of him
From Mr Flirt to Mr Generous
Haha
He lend me his Twilight Novel to me
Whom he have the whole set of the 4 books
Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn
And now, I'm so engross about it
Haha.
I know guys would not be too interested in these kind of things

but it's a good chance for me
as it could really improve my grammar
and a perfect book for me, since it contains familiar vocab words
And the O levels are round the corner
Being so preoccupied about it would not be a problem
I was even intending to keep borrowing all the 4 books from him
LOL!

Don't know why recently, I had a bad temper
I get frustrated easily over small little things
Does temper have to do with being a teen?
Or maybe because I have been skipping religious classes
that made my mind went polluted again?

Whatever it is
I've already been looking forward to November holidays
Already planning what I intending to do during the holidays
And even fixed my New Year resolutions
I wish the major exams would come to an end soon!
Sometimes, time flies fast!
And sometimes, maybe too slow!
Just trying hard to solve every problem

Hope I would not cry and give up on my way there...

So together, but so broken up inside...

Thursday, October 1, 2009 . 6:48 PM

Gettin sick these few days
Finally got to clean my own table
LOL!
Now it's all so neat and tidy
And I'm just so tired after cleaning and filing up evrything

Feeling sleepy now
Gotta sleep early later!




Kami-sama, I'm starting to get greedy again
How should I control myself...
我只是想要回属于我自己的东西而已，难道这也不行吗？

So together, but so broken up inside...