Monday, February 2, 2009 . 10:38 PM
Back to blogginToday was feeling rather negative
So this post will be filling up all my negative thoughts
JUST my negative thoughts ok...
I'm fine
Still my old-self
And I dont want anybody to be worried bout me
Just writing what i'm thinking
Which is of cos going to be NEGATIVE...
Today went to sch as usual
Nth special actually
Well...
I was hoping for some surprises for my birthday
But everything turned out normal
Nth special to me
I thought Sheryl and Pearl would buy the Japanese Book from Popular as my present
Which I've been craving for all these time
Cos they knew what i wanted to buy
But it seems that my predictions are all wrong
In the end, they just bought me a small keychain o_O!!
I more I expect things to be the way they should be
The more opposite they are going to be !
Ok la...
they bought for me i still have to appreciate it :D
But dunno why my heart feel so sour
Maybe becos of wrong expectations...?
They nver bought the books as my present, it's ok
I can earn money and buy it for myself :)
And my good friend, Marcus
I was expecting a present from him
Since he knew when was my birthday
He was the one who kept on reminding me that my birthday is coming
And was the one who kept pestering me bout what i want for my birthday present
In the end, was the one who ended up empty-handed
Whom I had to ask from him for my present, then he will go buy one for me
After all these 2 years I've been buying presents for him
yet he nver even given me any before!
It's ok not to receive any birthday presents
I dont mind...
But he knew me for 4 years, and he was the person which kept on forgetting when was my birthday
Told him many times, still forgot
Yet, he was the first person that I ever befriended in class when I was in secondary 1
But ok la, this year he seemed to finally rmb my birthday
And this year seems to be the first time that I ever received his birthday wishes through sms
Nvm then, I'll treat it as I owed him during my previous life =="
Haiz...
Now i finally understand why Pearlyn dun wan him liao
If I were Pearlyn, I think I oso dont want !!
Just chatted with him on MSN
I just dun care him
He asked me why like i suddenly dont care bout evrything
Cos I'm currently in a moody state
And how do u expect me to say to him?
I dont know how to react to him
And we always treat each other like brothers and sisters...
Sometimes I just wonder...
Is my birthday just so hard to rmb?
If not, why isit that so many ppl tend to forget it?
Or maybe it's just too easy to rmb
becos it falls on 31st Jan
Last day of the month, January...
That it actually slipped off ppl's mind so easily?
Or maybe they dont feel it important to them at all?
Tmr going to KBOX with my friends
Going to bring camera there
I dont think it will be a great day tmr
Not hoping anything best to happen tmr
Haiz.. forget it
Jus feeling tired and sick of him right now... So together, but so broken up inside...
