Saturday, February 14, 2009 . 7:04 PM
Today was really like a Miracle!
LOL!
Today morn, just realised how to really make use of my GOAL in life
LOL! "just realised how to really make use of my GOAL in life", feels funny right?
Previously, I was troubled bout myself
Not knowing what kind of person I really am
Acting like somebody
Trying to be like somebody
It's not the really ME that I'm acting
Feeling negative most of the time during school
Depressed over POA results which is my BEST subject of all could actually dropped till nearly failed!
Depressed over myself, that why am I so negative...???
Realised myself when i was thinking ideas for my ART...
Realised why I didnt have my own opinions
Realised that evrything in my mind was what ppl was saying bout, and it wasnt my own opinion at all...
But this morn, read a book that I borrowed frm the library
Returned to my normal self again :D
This time I wanna be just myself :)
Act the way I want to be, feel the way I want to feel :)
And yea..
Using my comp right now
and evrytime it would be lagging like hell
Bcos of not enough disk space in C Drive
Just now disk cleanup, dunno what I deleted
Then suddenly my C Drive have 5 GB of free space!
Whoa! 1st time wor!
I couldnt believe it cos evrytime I did disk cleanup was jus freeing one or two hundreds MB in C Drive
Always lacking of space in my C Drive!
Suddenly become 5 GB, I was kind of unbelievable!
At first I was like, "did I see wrongly?"
"I didnt!!! Really 5 GB wor! Am I dreaming?? Refresh again... Eh!?!? Really 5 GB, I'm not dreaming!!!"
LOL!
I think I stop here liao
Btw...
I think maybe I'll online for once a month or maybe not goin to online for a few months??
Not sure bout myself either
Hehe..
Cos I wanna study...
Computer consumes my time TOO MUCH :D
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Friday, 13 February 2009
Yea...
Tmr is Valentine's day
This morning went to sch to gave all the sweets and candies to my frens which I've prepared yesterday nite
One shocking thing was...
When sch was over
I was told by Marcus that he had lost his lollipop that I gave him for Valentine's Day
I was very angry after he told me
but I didnt shout at him on the face
I just shout out " I dont care, it's not my problem. You lost it, it's ur prob!"
u might think its just a small matter
just lost a lollipop only what...
Nth to be angry at...
But this is not the first time
SECONDARY 1
I used my own savings to buy a Kit Kat Chunky Chocolate for him during Valentine's Day
I remembered that day he said he had sore throat, cannot eat
And eventually, he wanted to return me o.O!!!
The gift was I bought for him de and he wanted to return!?
So I asked him to just keep it first...
doesnt mean he have to eat it immediately
And then he left it under the sch table
the nxt day, DISAPPEAR
I was mad at first, but later on felt "ok lor, lost la..nvm de :)"
So I nver bothered
SECONDARY 3
I think gave him chocolate/lollipop
either one...
So happily gave him :D
And I think he lost again
Nvm lor...although was angry for a while
but nver think more bout it :D
SECONDARY 4
TODAY...
gave him a lollipop
and he was the first to get my lollipop
In the end, he told me he LOST it
WTH!!!
I was really damn mad at him!
LOST THEN LOST lor!
I dont wanna care anymore
Evrytime give him anything
Always lost de
Since he dont know how to appreciate the gifts I gave it to him
Nxt year Valentine's Day decided not to give him anymore things!
Was very angry at first when I walked out of the classroom with Sheryl
And we were heading to the Art room that time
After that, when I reached the Art room
I realised...
I wasnt really mad...
I was feeling rather sad
Sad bcos as a good friend, like him...
doesnt seems to appreciate the things that I gave it to him evrytime
Fine lor! Nxt time not going to give him anything anymore
Evrytime I give things to my friends or classmates to my friends
Especially during Valentine's Day
HE 's the only one who loses my gifts that I gave him
Nvm...
I'm not giving to him only..
Nxt year...
And yea...
I get to use my new CO instrument
WHAHAHA!
The old one that I'm using the last time is going to pass it down to my sec 1 new Juniors
LOL!
New instruments are better, louder and clearer :D
Had a test today
To see whether we could qualify for SYF
And our teacher said that our section, maybe 1 person have to be sacrificed
Cos there is 9 ppl, and we just needed 8 in SYF
Practice...
Practice...
And...
OMG! my TURN!!
Went to the seat with my score!
I played all the songs for him
And he point out my mistakes
I was like OMG!
Then he gave his comments bout me...
Mr Chin: u just joined CO last year right? and last year since when did u join CO?
Me: Err...around October..
Mr Chin: u are now secondary?
Me: secondary 4
Mr Chin: u're secondary 4 ha..
Me: .....!!! Why u ask?
Mr Chin: Erm.. No. Because just now after listening to ur play, I was quite touched
to hear that u can play so well compared to the time when I first taught u.
Me: o.O
Mr Chin: After ur turn, there will still be 4 more ppl
Me: *nod nod*
Mr Chin: So, let's say IF, the other 4 plays better than u, I cannot gurantee that u can go into SYF, unless u dont want to be in SYF, then I can gurantee that u'r not in :D
Mr Chin:u want to go in SYF?
Me: *nod nod* yea ...
Mr Chin: OK.. u may go :)
Me:
LOL!
Very funny...
I think I have the confidence that I can go into SYF
LOL!
Stop here then :D So together, but so broken up inside...
