Tuesday, April 14, 2009 . 12:02 AM
As time really heals up woundsI finally had the courage to appear online in MSN
He talked to me as usual as he does.
Although being very cold towards him at first
but i know its not gd being like dat towards him
I began to forgive him
Although my heart still feels the fear inside
I'm not sure why I feel fearful
And I do not want to know why
I jus know that, just be friends again
Like Peter said, take it as an experience
Maybe I can accept that
And I'm trying to forgive him
Slowly...
Although I dont hold any grudge in him anymore
But the fears are still in me
Just chatted with him a few mins ago
Tryin to stay in a friendly tone
He's still the same old he
Never change
Thoughts and words are still the same
Maybe I've change too much?
I just find him very very BORING
Like a child, still not grown up
I dont take the initiative to chat with him
He was always the first to start a conversation wif me
So i chatted with him
trying to change my mindset to a positive one
But he was always the one
who made my mind turn negative
I couldnt help it
Talking bout lame and boring stuffs
Like nth beter to do
Or maybe I simply just cant accept him as my fren again? So together, but so broken up inside...
